"Where love is lost, your ghost is found"

I gasp for air. I am weary.

I sit.

Every fiber of my being begs for rescue.

I am unable to handle this reoccurring pain.

Beat into the ground I feel worthless.

Is this your plan God?

Endure. Respect. Rebel. Impatience.

Pitiful.

I am a mess a heap. I am nothing.

Your plan has unfolded.

Where to now? We've run out of options.

Heaving. Sobbing. Anguish.

I sense it's over.

Sorrow. Realization.

We will never get these moments back.

“Cut” there is no chance for take two.

Our life is an improv gone bad.

Wait. Hold up. I take it back.

Stone. Ice. Steele Soul.

No, you're too late.

Damage has been done.

We've built ourselves a guillotine

Decisions made. It's over.

Halfway down. Can't turn back.

Drops. Sears. “Cut”

Skin

Skin

I am alone as I often am

Secluding myself from the rest of the world

My skin is my bubble

A perfect barrier between me and them

Unable to run like in a dream

Stuck watching the hands of time

It keeps me from engaging with the world

Being one with them

One will never understand

Pushing outside this rigid flexible wall

Breaking the mold is near impossible

Unless within my skin you will never understand.

Conquer

Conquer

Every few breath is a rasping short deep intake

My breathing continues to worsen.

I walk. I sit. I lay.

It seems I'm holding my breath.

Waiting for it to become easier.

Waiting for life to unravel into a fairytale.

Yet not every fairytale is ever after.

Nothing to expect.

Wait. Endure. Eventually Conquer.

I have shattered

Shattered

Sometimes I feel so vulnerable.

Just as a spider web.

Strong, yet if touched in one place: ruined.

I'm ready to shatter like broken glass.

I Have

I've heard the whispers screaming through the night.

I've heard the silent child's cry.

I've seen the anger written on their arms.

Loneliness in a crowded storm.

Forever would be better

I have these walls
Ones that are impossible to break

You get to me.
That alone it terrifies me.

It's adorable that you care.
What's scary is that I may too.

Now I'm wary that I'll push you away.
As if losing you forever would be better.

During the Earthquakes in Japan

I sit here on this sill
Staring at the world around me
It's so tranquil and calm
As if nothing could be wrong

Chaos and havoc over in Japan
People are dying and cursing His name
They suffer and grasp for something
A hope that's left of what used to be

A normal day an eternity away
They call out for help
Shouting out into the unknown
Praying for the first time

One thing mustn't be done
Don't ever question "why?"
Understanding is not within reach
We cannot fathom this life

Just live and believe
Believe in those you love
Believe in yourself
Never lose sight of Hope